tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-3537353127426739862024-03-08T05:24:15.136-05:00The Latte MommyThe life of a latte mommy.Tracey cathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16141965877865841225noreply@blogger.comBlogger294125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-353735312742673986.post-86513282801361696592022-09-20T22:20:00.003-04:002022-09-20T22:27:08.934-04:00I can't believe I'm actually reading this <p> I've been reading my blog and I got back to 2013 and I really can't believe what I was reading now when I found my significant other flirting s****** with women online he would never admit it even when I shoved it in his face. Never would say he was sorry because then it would be like he was admitting it. But had the audacity to tell me that I wasn't showing him enough affection. Now I worked 12 hours and did tons of stuff for my kids and their school and whatnot all week. He didn't let's just put it that way. So anyway I'm reading back to 2013 and I'm reading that I'm sitting alone on the couch watching TV and I wanted affection and it was funny because the other person was on the computer and I said wow the screen the other end of that screen must be really important or something like that. Now that just shows me that what he said was not true and that I was right and I knew that wasn't the case and that wasn't an excuse for him to do that online with other girls because that is disgusting especially when it was my computer and it was my house lol. At any rate just wanted to make a note of that maybe I'll start blogging again who knows.</p><div class="blogger-post-footer"><a target="_blank" title="Follow on Google Buzz" class="google-buzz-button" href="https://profiles.google.com/109769145510388232862/about" data-button-style="follow">Follow on Buzz</a>
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<script type="text/javascript" src="http://www.google.com/buzz/api/button.js"></script></div>Tracey cathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16141965877865841225noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-353735312742673986.post-89080774106754989962016-09-25T11:04:00.000-04:002016-09-25T11:04:38.672-04:00NOT AGAIN< PLEASE<span style="color: magenta; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Ill tell you i really didn't need this right now. It's the same old shit, different day. Just when you think things are gonna calm down, maybe settle down, etc, havoc starts up again and it's sooooo recognizable. It's the same as it always was. Maybe worse,So predictable, in every aspect of the situation. But you know what, the best thing for me to do right now and I'm so proud of myself for recognizing it, is to step back, far back, like miles back. Not get involved. Do nothing. You know how they say sometimes doing nothing is the best thing to do. Well, that time has come, and that is rare for me. It's usually hard to bc i like to get involved in shit and help etc but nahhh i can see this fire from a mile away and the farther away i am, the less burnt i'll get. And i really don't need to be getting damaged mentally , emotionally, shit, in any way. I can see it happening and i'm putting a stop to it now. Taking control. by doing nothing. Isn't it great. I guess when and if the smoke blows over something that resembles what once was may be salvageable. If not, what can i do. Not a damn thing. Gonna keep busy today around my room clean, paperwork, start a bullet journal, which i just discovered, oooh more crafts for me to do. I'll have fun. </span><br />
<span style="color: magenta; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Hugs T.</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><a target="_blank" title="Follow on Google Buzz" class="google-buzz-button" href="https://profiles.google.com/109769145510388232862/about" data-button-style="follow">Follow on Buzz</a>
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<script type="text/javascript" src="http://www.google.com/buzz/api/button.js"></script></div>Tracey cathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16141965877865841225noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-353735312742673986.post-50665625447255992152016-09-13T21:23:00.001-04:002016-09-13T21:23:53.603-04:00The good, the bad and the ugly.<span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><b>Well i </b>said goodbye to my car, my 03 explorer. It had run its course and i needed money so i sent it to the salvage yard, kinda like heaven for cars. lol. I'll miss it but i have a nice new car so its all good. I can't believe the kids just started school and tomorrow night is already back to school night. This should be very interesting as both of them are in high school so i'll literally have to be in two places at once! You know usually the mom will go to one and the dad will go to the other, not happening. Every year i get really depressed at back to school night. I see moms and dads and it makes me miss Mike so much. Every damn year it's the same feeling, it's so unfair that he can't be here to watch his kids in high school, he'd be so proud of them, like i am. I just have to believe that he is up there with me when i go, he's up there watching them in school , the good , bad and the ugly. </span><br />
<span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">At any rate, things are kinda quiet around here, i guess that's good, no drama. But it's also very lonely. Ill tell you, within a room full of people i'm lonely. There is always an inner turmoil sitting there. Never just peace. I'm seriously thinking of starting yoga or meditating. I could join a class, or do it alone but it seems when you join a class you are more likely to commit yourself. I need to be taught how to shut my brain down, how to shut the negative thoughts down, and how to stop the hamster wheel. There is always about 10 things stirring in my head. most of them are problems i need to solve. or that damn to do list that will never ever end let alone get smaller instead of longer every day. I often wonder, do other people have these issues, or is it me, just me. I know a lot of people do but is there a group of people out there that is so happy or are they just so good at hiding it. who knows. its their secret. Well i'm off right now to get moving on the to do list, stare at my calendar some more. etc. </span><br />
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<script type="text/javascript" src="http://www.google.com/buzz/api/button.js"></script></div>Tracey cathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16141965877865841225noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-353735312742673986.post-42046356054227601152016-09-11T16:41:00.000-04:002016-09-11T16:41:38.543-04:00You cant make someone change<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">I'M getting really tired of all this bullshit , it's just so much anymore, i don't understand why the sun just won't shine over me. \Sure i've made some shitty decisions but i think i've made up for most of it. \i've tried at least. </span><br />
<span style="color: magenta; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">I would love to understand how people think its ok to give ultimatums when it comes to friends just because they feel threatened by them.. That's all it is, because if they were secure, and trusted their partner they would let them have all the friends in the world, guy girl, blue black purple. who cares. But no,ht when they want you all to themselves you know its a problem. its scary. where is my choice , why isn't it up to me whom i befriend. </span><br />
<span style="color: magenta; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">You know, you go through life and meet a bunch of people, a lot come and go, rarely do any stay. You may find one , maybe one, that is honest, trustworthy and just an overall good person, and you are supposed to let them slip away because someone else is jealous or does not share your thoughts, yeah. I'm so over this , in the midst of all this inner turmoil i now have to deal with this. Why is it always something, why is it so hard, it's not supposed to be hard. and your loved ones should see this and not pressure you and in the end try and make you make a decision on their terms, one they may regret. But let them go ahead and try and make your life miserable, only thing is, i've learned no can make me miserable but myself and those i let do it to me. And i'm not.</span><br />
<span style="color: magenta; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Enough for now\</span><br />
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<script type="text/javascript" src="http://www.google.com/buzz/api/button.js"></script></div>Tracey cathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16141965877865841225noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-353735312742673986.post-79139340351256203932016-09-02T23:15:00.000-04:002016-09-02T23:15:23.101-04:00Alone but on the inside,<span style="color: magenta;">I hate the strange feeling that has come over me, it often does for no reason at all. Its just a sense of melancholy , sadness, loneliness. Its like i could be with many people but i'm still alone. Its not a good feeling at all. Once it sets in its very hard to shake too. \i mean good things have been happening but i'm almost waiting for the bottom to drop or the black cloud to return, I'M trying so hard to be everything to everyone. b/c everyone needs something different from me. It gets tiring. and then, who is there to give to me, I mean who can actually understand and make me feel at ease when i feel like this, hmm. I wish. Also confusing, i don't want to sleep but i don't want to be awake, i'm so confused. </span><br />
<span style="color: magenta;">I just thought id drop in and say hi, vent a little and maybe break up the monotony going on over here. I just want to feel better inside is all.</span><br />
<span style="color: magenta;">Luv T. </span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><a target="_blank" title="Follow on Google Buzz" class="google-buzz-button" href="https://profiles.google.com/109769145510388232862/about" data-button-style="follow">Follow on Buzz</a>
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<span style="color: magenta; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Lately ive had sooo much to do and im just getting really overwhelmed when i even think about it,maybe its cause i put alot off and now its time to catch up. My own fault. So im trying to catch up while keeping ahead of the game. seems like alot always happens at once, then its a dull void. my brain is tired , fried, confused. Its probably the ADHD, not letting me finish shit, moving on before im finished the last project, cause i get an idea and i move on it. leaving all the other shit in the dust. gotta work on that. </span><br />
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<span style="color: #e06666; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">I cant believe the boys are so old now, god where does the time go, its scary, thats why i gotta do good things, they wont be my little boys forever. well they arent little now but you know.</span><br />
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<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">So this was just a drop back in blog, i gotta work on my to do list as we speak, ill write better tommorow. </span><br />
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<span style="color: #38761d; font-family: Times, Times New Roman, serif;">Luv T./</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><a target="_blank" title="Follow on Google Buzz" class="google-buzz-button" href="https://profiles.google.com/109769145510388232862/about" data-button-style="follow">Follow on Buzz</a>
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<script type="text/javascript" src="http://www.google.com/buzz/api/button.js"></script></div>Tracey cathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16141965877865841225noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-353735312742673986.post-45905192937124659262014-09-28T01:15:00.002-04:002014-09-28T01:15:54.374-04:00Playing around on the web!!<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">Wow, has anyone seen, or used the IFTTT iphone app, it is so awesome ( i know im old, im using the word awesome lol). Anyway, it is a great app. You use "recipes" by using apps together. Its hard to describe, but if you go look up the app, free BTW, you wont be sorry, Ive been playing with it all night and im sure ive only hit the tip of the iceberg. Of course by playing lol, ive avoiding my duties as "housewife" lol. Real housewives of West Chester over here. Boy ive got enough drama to fill a few episodes. Not necessarily in my town or neighborhood but definitely in my life, so its all good. </span><div>
<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">That would be so interesting really, to get to make my own RH series. Im sure alot of women could relate to it, it would make me feel better knowing they could!! If you think about it, really i would despise cameras following me around, esp when im doing dumb shit, which is often. Like talking to myself, and answering myself is even better. Im using my new laptop i got. Its an ACER. Really not a bad one, ive never used an acer before. I prefer HP anyday but this one was on sale bigtime, and i only need it for my stuff. Not big projects , i have the home computer all in one HP for that stuff. This one is just for me. So im trying it out last few days, and like i said, not too bad. Well back to IFTTT, stands for If that then this. lol. Check it out. oh and say a prayer for a former co worker of mine. I dont know the circumstances but she just lost her 23 year old son the other day and the funeral was this morning. I cant imagine the loss of a child, so my heart is with her. Thanks </span></div>
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<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">HUGS xo</span></div>
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<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Verdana, sans-serif;">T. </span></div>
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, only involved in their own happiness and in crushing others glory. Really just people with no self confidence who dont know how to give. Losers all the way around. Oh well, back to school work, chat later!@!<br />
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<script type="text/javascript" src="http://www.google.com/buzz/api/button.js"></script></div>Tracey cathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16141965877865841225noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-353735312742673986.post-46351730703629654702014-04-30T04:09:00.001-04:002014-04-30T04:09:32.749-04:00Tightrope<p dir="ltr">With all the shit going on lately  and all I've managed to remain relatively calm and in control. I'll tell you finances really can reek havoc<br>
It just seems that lately my mind is elsewhere. I kinda checked out and I'm starting to see the effects of that now  the effects of me kind of checking out or taking care of shit half assed . And now it feels like I keep myself busy busy busy. Spring cleaning A LOT. And when I stop for a minute my head starts to spin with thoughts of how I need to be doing so many other things to keep my household going as it has been. The boys have been great , I really would love to find something g special to do with them. It's very hard to keep a balance. It's like walking a tightrope ! <br></p>
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<script type="text/javascript" src="http://www.google.com/buzz/api/button.js"></script></div>Tracey cathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16141965877865841225noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-353735312742673986.post-31684729506485005252014-04-04T01:27:00.001-04:002014-04-04T01:28:33.162-04:00Rain rain go away. <p dir="ltr">Somehow this always happens. No matter how much money I have I'm always paying bills when I get the notice that they are going to disconnect and turn off my services. It's like I feel untouchable and then find out I'm the same as every other person out there. At least in one way or another! Money is so tight right now. Some\/ I mean every day I wonder how I'm going to make out. My doctor says back surgery is an option that I really need to explore. Only thing is I have a few areas on my spine and then he said there is a chance the surgery won't work at all. I'm scared of anything touching my spine sounds weird but that's me. So I guess those 18 years of nursing really did a number on me. Just turned 42 and I never expected that I would be in this place. Just a little rant , in which I could go on and on with different subject matter but I'll save that for a rainy day. I think it's supposed to rain all day tomorrow lol. So get ready! !! lol. <br>
Xoxo hugs <br>
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<script type="text/javascript" src="http://www.google.com/buzz/api/button.js"></script></div>Tracey cathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16141965877865841225noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-353735312742673986.post-19155393558228821002014-03-21T04:48:00.002-04:002014-03-21T04:48:55.649-04:00Washing this feeling off of me. <span style="color: #741b47;"><span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">As time goes by, i guess the burn isnt as bitter, isnt as fresh, but its still there. Some people just dont give up. There are alot of things that have happened in the past 9 months that are still stinging. I guess i needed to get burnt in order to believe it for myself. In order to know that i did all i could, to change things for the better. All i could to not believe in pathological liars, to believe that how some things that seemed so innocent yet so jaded were beyond my trying ways. Im trying not to ponder on this too long and really this is the only place i get to vent about it, in the </span> anonomys <span style="font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"> world of my blog. So for now, im really trying to just come to terms with the situation, along with many other ones that have passed my way, and feel completely over it. It just seems as soon as im ready to let it go, another piece of new bullshit comes at me, and im taken aback, im telling you i actually start to feel physically sick in my stomach and so hopeless that there are real people out there. its a very alone feeling. and i dont want to feel this way anymore. I want to feel normal. whatever that may be. I want a do over. i want to see it for what it was from day one. It really makes me sad, especially when its 5am and I cant sleep yet im exhausted and my mind plays tricks on me. Its always worse than it really is. Well ive said my piece this night and i need to wash my mind of it right now and change my tune. Get this sickening feeling off of me. Good luck with that , eh lol. </span></span><br />
<span style="color: #741b47; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">T. </span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><a target="_blank" title="Follow on Google Buzz" class="google-buzz-button" href="https://profiles.google.com/109769145510388232862/about" data-button-style="follow">Follow on Buzz</a>
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<script type="text/javascript" src="http://www.google.com/buzz/api/button.js"></script></div>Tracey cathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16141965877865841225noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-353735312742673986.post-61521069942989044722014-02-12T02:15:00.002-05:002014-02-12T02:15:47.780-05:00Not as innocent as they seem.<span style="color: #0b5394; font-family: Trebuchet MS, sans-serif;">Looking back at 2013 its hard to believe i really only blogged less than 100 times. Alot happened but i guess i just wanted to keep it to myself. There is a question i have that has really been bugging me, even more so this past year. Why is it that the people you give to the most, end up stealing from you. I would think that if someone is giving you cart blanch e to their stuff, whether it be money, belongings etc., that you would just stay friends, or close to that person knowing you would reap the rewards of just being a good friend etc. Maybe its because the person knows that you give so freely and figures, it must not be that important to you, so why not take as you feel the need. That is an asinine idea, but hey, thieves aren't always the smartest. Really if and when you find out that the person is stealing from you, which by the way, you always find out, the supply comes to a quick end.. There are multiple people ive come across that i guess ive given too much to, so much that its not appreciated. I guess i don't mind sharing because we are all in places when we need, when we don't have a lot, and like i said, i don't mind sharing but i do mind getting taken advantage of, which happens more so than not. I always figured karma would do its job but so far, im just more in the hole with my goods. Im learning that this world sucks. People aren't as they portray. The mask always comes off, whether it be one week or one year. Its not making me give less, its just making me look at people and maybe don't give them the benefit of the doubt but make them work for it. Its not innocent until proven guilty anymore. its a shame!</span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><a target="_blank" title="Follow on Google Buzz" class="google-buzz-button" href="https://profiles.google.com/109769145510388232862/about" data-button-style="follow">Follow on Buzz</a>
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<script type="text/javascript" src="http://www.google.com/buzz/api/button.js"></script></div>Tracey cathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16141965877865841225noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-353735312742673986.post-9922787680856624002014-02-08T05:13:00.000-05:002014-02-08T05:13:14.526-05:00Still gonna be me!!<span style="color: #ea9999; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><b>Here i am again, still pondering my decisions, replaying shit in my head, to say, "OHHH that's what that was all about!" Enough said, i just decided that im not going to let the liars etc people in this world change me. Im not going to turn into the bitch i should become. I will continue to help those in need, i just have to weed the bad ones out, make it more of a process than just jumping in without my life jacket on. Im just going to continue to be me, that's who i want to be, that's who im comfortable teaching my children who i am. Continuing to be the role model that i have become . Just knowing that my children and my CLOSE friends know can look up to me and think, wow, we all have tough shitty lives and bad things happen to both good and bad people, But, we don't have to become one of them. We can keep on going and achieve great things. I've got to get back to life again, continue my classes for my masters, teach my kids at home and in this shitty life, realize that making people feel good makes me feel good, maybe that's why i am a nurse. A caregiver, not everyone is appreciative but just that one that is can make your day. So sappy i know. </b></span><br />
<span style="color: #ea9999; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;"><b>HUGS </b></span><br />
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<script type="text/javascript" src="http://www.google.com/buzz/api/button.js"></script></div>Tracey cathttp://www.blogger.com/profile/16141965877865841225noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-353735312742673986.post-42675873970518885152014-01-28T00:17:00.001-05:002014-01-28T00:17:45.993-05:00Take me or leave me, no just leave me !!!<span style="color: #b4a7d6; font-family: Georgia, Times New Roman, serif;">Im just so disappointed, in other people but mostly in myself. To say ive been taken is an understatement. But really i have no one to blame but me. I really need to stop being so nice, only to get lied to , walked over, stolen from, and just really disappointed in humanity. I tend to give people the benefit of the doubt, well im learning that society is just not so nice. Im proving myself wrong but it is costing me an arm and a leg. It seems to be that the more you give people ,of yourself and of monetary things, the more they take. Ive been more than generous over the years to people, only to have them steal from me when im not looking. I don't expect it from them because who would steal from someone that is giving you whatever you needed. Oh im sorry maybe its as simple as im giving it to you in a blue cup and you want it in gold. If its not the way you want it, its just not what it is. How can we tell these intruders from the friends and family we thought we were so close to. How do we know if there words are lies and they are making the "bad person" worse than they are. I mean one person can only have so much bad luck. Shouldn't i have seen that? Is there a test we should be giving? Or am i just to turn into a complete non giving non caring bitch in order to maintain my dignity and keep myself safe. I suppose so. I guess when you find that you cant advance your relationship whether it be friendship or love , because normal everyday things are out of the question and your relationship revolves around one thing or another, usually something that is going to positively impact said friend etc. In layman terms, they are using you for something and it takes awhile to get the gist of it. </span><div class="blogger-post-footer"><a target="_blank" title="Follow on Google Buzz" class="google-buzz-button" href="https://profiles.google.com/109769145510388232862/about" data-button-style="follow">Follow on Buzz</a>
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