The Latte Mommy: Vacation, where are you???

The Latte Mommy: Vacation, where are you???: we ll I made a new friend but im hopeful that her boyfriend lets her be my friend. he is kinda controlling. I dont know the whole story so i...

Vacation, where are you???

well I made a new friend but im hopeful that her boyfriend lets her be my friend. he is kinda controlling. I dont know the whole story so i cant pick sides but im harmless, i have no alterior motives, Im genuinely lonely as hell and need a friend like you dont know.  I hope it works out.  Ive been feeeling ok, my back has been hurting me like hell, i need to change my doc appt before i hit the shore this weekend coming up. Ocean City NJ here i come. It will be fun with the boys and my sister and brother in law and mom and dad. Nothing to worry about, well thats the way i make it when i vacation. I leave it all behind and just relax dont worry and be happy. Ahhh one week isnt enough!!! 
xoxox
T/

The Latte Mommy: Sub-par is all i can be.

The Latte Mommy: Sub-par is all i can be.: I think as im  becoming more depressed over all this im also becoming very hateful of the people that have wronged me and/or the people that...

Sub-par is all i can be.

I think as im  becoming more depressed over all this im also becoming very hateful of the people that have wronged me and/or the people that pretended to be my friend yet have either backstabbed me or in some way hurt me by not being there or caring.Im becoming a hateful person and thats not who i want to be. But im looking at these people and their lives and how much either fun they are having or places they have gone, as i sit here in my home, with zero dollars and not much of a future at this time. Ive taken my boys nowhere, i never had the money. I cant do anything fun with them, i dont have the money. We spend alot of good time together and thats what we have, its blissful. But its sub-par to the mother i wish to be.  Actually im sub-par to the person i wish to be, its hard to change t hings that are out of your control. I guess i should just keep to myself because every time i make friends and let them in, i get hurt, whether it be on purpose or by neglect but im tired of it. Im tired of fighting for nothing. It should have been me, 

The Latte Mommy: always alone

The Latte Mommy: always alone: you know, i hate to be a party poop but im feeling like its me against the world and i dont like anyone!i really do feel like a kid having a...

always alone

you know, i hate to be a party poop but im feeling like its me against the world and i dont like anyone!i really do feel like a kid having a tantrum but i feel like a kid who just doesnt understand what the hell is going on in this life. Its not supposed to be this hard, i mean come on, i really thought id endured all the life crisis and life altering events i should have by now, way more than normal. But it keeps coming, , its like push me down and at the same time, lets highlight the people who do wrong secretly. Im just in a foul mood, im sorry, i dont know whether im awake or tired or happy or sad or what, im just so mixed up and alone. always alone.
xo T.

The Latte Mommy: Its so unfair...

The Latte Mommy: Its so unfair...: Well im not as moody today but things are the same, no better no wor se, well in order to get my health insurance, Cobra, continued i have t...