The Latte Mommy: Playing around on the web!!

The Latte Mommy: Playing around on the web!!: Wow, has anyone seen, or used the IFTTT iphone app, it is so awesome ( i know im old, im using the word awesome lol). Anyway, it is a great ...

Playing around on the web!!

Wow, has anyone seen, or used the IFTTT iphone app, it is so awesome ( i know im old, im using the word awesome lol). Anyway, it is a great app. You use "recipes" by using apps together. Its hard to describe, but if you go look up the app, free BTW, you wont be sorry, Ive been playing with it all night and im sure ive only hit the tip of the iceberg.  Of course by playing lol, ive avoiding my duties as "housewife" lol. Real housewives of West Chester over here. Boy ive got enough drama to fill a few episodes. Not necessarily in my town or neighborhood but definitely in my life, so its all good. 

That would be so interesting really, to get to make my own RH series. Im sure alot of women could relate to it, it would make me feel better knowing they could!! If you think about it, really i would despise cameras following me around, esp when im doing dumb shit, which is often. Like talking to myself, and answering myself is even better. Im using my new laptop i got. Its an ACER. Really not a bad one, ive never used an acer before. I prefer HP anyday but this one was on sale bigtime, and i only need it for my stuff. Not big projects , i have the home computer all in one HP for that stuff. This one is just for me. So im trying it out last few days, and like i said, not too bad. Well back to IFTTT, stands for If that then this. lol. Check it out. oh and say a prayer for a former co worker of mine. I dont know the circumstances but she just lost her 23 year old son the other day and the funeral was this morning. I cant imagine the loss of a child, so my heart is with her. Thanks 

HUGS xo

T. 

The Latte Mommy: Busy times, happy times.

The Latte Mommy: Busy times, happy times.: Damn, i havent posted in a long time, i guess i didnt like shady people reading my blog and then trying to use it against me, so i cant deci...

Busy times, happy times.

Damn, i havent posted in a long time, i guess i didnt like shady people reading my blog and then trying to use it against me, so i cant decide to make it private or not. I mean its just my thoughts so really no one should have shit to say about it, if they do, they can say it to my face is all. lol, didnt think so!! All this shit going on, makes me wonder how i keep my sanity, if its not one thing its another. mostly its just the fact that i dont know why i cant just live my life in peace and quiet. I dont know why everyone , who doesnt know me, feel like they should be judging me or why they would think they know anymore than me. Walk a mile or even half a mile lol in my shoes and then go on and comment. I think some people may forget their younger years. I really am not one to judge either. I take people for what i see etc. If i dont know them i dont make assumptions, i dont generally call people dirtbags lol that ive never met before hahah. I could call people lots of names lmao, but i dont. Oh well, maybe i should. Anyway, im trying to stay sane in this crazy world put in front of me, the boys are doing great,, im always happy for that. Their uncle is so great to them. its such a help.  Mike would be so proud of how he stepped up, he is really so non judgemental and just a help, mentally and physically to them.  I feel so bad for kids that only have one parent. i mean mine would die to have their father back, and some kids dont even have loving parents to take care of them in all ways possible. Deadbeat moms and Dads, its so rough. Ah so is life. Im still going strong in school, on my way to my masters, love it.  We are really doing great despite the chaos surrounding us, makes us feel good to help. We always appreciate all the help we ever had, so giving back is no problem, we are just like that, good people with big hearts, and im glad ive taught my children that quality. They see others not acting that way and question it, i just tell them, some people are just narcissistic
, only involved in their own happiness and in crushing others glory. Really just people with no self confidence who dont know how to give. Losers all the way around. Oh well, back to school work, chat later!@!
Luv T.

Tightrope

With all the shit going on lately  and all I've managed to remain relatively calm and in control. I'll tell you finances really can reek havoc
It just seems that lately my mind is elsewhere. I kinda checked out and I'm starting to see the effects of that now  the effects of me kind of checking out or taking care of shit half assed .  And now it feels like I keep myself busy busy busy. Spring cleaning A LOT. And when I stop for a minute my head starts to spin with thoughts of how I need to be doing so many other things to keep my household going as it has been. The boys have been great , I really would love to find something g special to do with them. It's very hard to keep a balance. It's like walking a tightrope !

Rain rain go away.

Somehow this always happens. No matter how much money I have I'm always paying bills when I get the notice that they are going to disconnect and turn off my services. It's like I feel untouchable and then find out I'm the same as every other person out there. At least in one way or another! Money is so tight right now. Some\/ I mean every day I wonder how I'm going to make out. My doctor says back surgery is an option that I really need to explore. Only thing is I have a few areas on my spine and then he said there is a chance the surgery won't work at all. I'm scared of anything touching my spine  sounds weird but that's me. So I guess those 18 years of nursing really did a number on me. Just turned 42 and I never expected that I would be in this place. Just a little rant , in which I could go on and on with different subject matter but I'll save that for a rainy day. I think it's supposed to rain all day tomorrow lol. So get ready! !! lol.
Xoxo hugs
T.

The Latte Mommy: Washing this feeling off of me.

The Latte Mommy: Washing this feeling off of me.: As time goes by, i guess the burn isnt as bitter, isnt as fresh, but its still there. Some people just dont give up. There are alot of thing...

Washing this feeling off of me.

As time goes by, i guess the burn isnt as bitter, isnt as fresh, but its still there. Some people just dont give up. There are alot of things that have happened in the past 9 months that are still stinging. I guess i needed to get burnt in order to believe it for myself. In order to know that i did all i could, to change things for the better. All i could to not believe in pathological liars, to believe that how some things that seemed so innocent yet so jaded were beyond my trying ways. Im trying not to ponder on this too long and really this is the only place i get to vent about it, in the  anonomys  world of my blog. So for now, im really trying to just come to terms with the situation, along with many other ones that have passed my way, and feel completely over it.  It just seems as soon as im ready to let it go, another piece of new bullshit comes at me, and im taken aback, im telling you i actually start to feel physically sick in my stomach and so hopeless that there are real people out there.  its a very alone feeling.  and i dont want to feel this  way anymore.  I want to feel normal. whatever that may be.  I want a do over. i want to see it for what it was from day one. It really makes me sad, especially when its 5am and I cant sleep yet im exhausted and my mind plays tricks on me. Its always worse than it really is. Well ive said my piece this night and i need to wash my mind of it right now and change my tune. Get this sickening feeling off of me. Good luck with that , eh lol. 
T. 

The Latte Mommy: Not as innocent as they seem.

The Latte Mommy: Not as innocent as they seem.: Looking back at 2013 its hard to believe i really only blogged less than 100 times. Alot happened but i guess i just wanted to keep it to my...

Not as innocent as they seem.

Looking back at 2013 its hard to believe i really only blogged less than 100 times. Alot happened but i guess i just wanted to keep it to myself.  There is a question i have that has really been bugging me, even more so this past year. Why is it that the people you give to the most, end up stealing from you.  I would think that if someone is giving you cart blanch e to their stuff, whether it be money, belongings etc., that you would just stay friends, or close to that person knowing you would reap the rewards of just being a good friend etc. Maybe its because the person knows that you give so freely and figures, it must not be that important to you, so why not take as you feel the need. That is an asinine idea, but hey, thieves aren't always the smartest.  Really if and when you find out that the person is stealing from you, which by the way, you always find out, the supply comes to a quick end.. There are multiple people ive come across that i guess ive given too much to, so much that its not appreciated. I guess i don't mind sharing because we are all in places when we need, when we don't have a  lot, and like i said, i don't mind sharing but i do mind getting taken advantage of, which happens more so than not. I always figured karma would do its job but so far, im just more in the hole with my goods. Im learning that this world sucks. People aren't as they portray. The mask always comes off, whether it be one week or one year. Its not making me give less, its just making me look at people and maybe don't give them the benefit of the doubt but make them work for it. Its not innocent until proven guilty anymore. its a shame!

The Latte Mommy: Still gonna be me!!

The Latte Mommy: Still gonna be me!!: Here i am again, still pondering my decisions, replaying shit in my head, to say, "OHHH that's what that was all about!"  Enou...

Still gonna be me!!

Here i am again, still pondering my decisions, replaying shit in my head, to say, "OHHH that's what that was all about!"  Enough said, i just decided that im not going to let the liars etc people in this world change me. Im not going to turn into the bitch i should become. I will continue to help those in need, i just have to weed the bad ones out, make it more of a process than just jumping in without my life jacket on.  Im just going to continue to be me, that's who i want to be, that's who im comfortable teaching my children who i am. Continuing to be the role model that i have become . Just knowing that my children and my CLOSE friends know can look up to me and think, wow, we all have tough shitty lives and bad things happen to both good and bad people, But, we don't have to become one of them. We can keep on going and achieve great things. I've got to get back to life again, continue my classes for my masters, teach my kids at home and in this shitty life, realize that making people feel good makes me feel good, maybe that's why i am a nurse. A caregiver, not everyone is appreciative but just that one that is can make your day. So sappy i know. 
HUGS 
T.

The Latte Mommy: Take me or leave me, no just leave me !!!

The Latte Mommy: Take me or leave me, no just leave me !!!: Im just so disappointed, in other people but mostly in myself. To say ive been taken is an understatement. But really i have no one to blame...

Take me or leave me, no just leave me !!!

Im just so disappointed, in other people but mostly in myself. To say ive been taken is an understatement. But really i have no one to blame but me. I really need to stop being so nice, only to get lied to , walked over, stolen from, and just really disappointed in humanity. I tend to give people the benefit of the doubt, well im learning that society is just not so nice. Im proving myself wrong but it is costing me an arm and a leg.  It seems to be that the more you give people ,of yourself and of monetary things, the more they take. Ive been more than generous over the years to people, only to have them steal from me when im not looking. I don't expect it from them because who would steal from someone that is giving you whatever you needed. Oh im sorry maybe its as simple as im giving it to you in a blue cup and you want it in gold. If its not the way you want it, its just not what it is. How can we tell these intruders from the friends and family we thought we were so close to. How do we know if there words are lies and they are making the "bad person" worse than they are. I mean one person can only have so much bad luck. Shouldn't i have seen that? Is there a test we should be giving? Or am i just to turn into a complete non giving non caring bitch in order to maintain my dignity and keep myself safe. I suppose so.  I guess when you find that you cant advance your relationship whether it be friendship or love , because normal everyday things are out of the question and your relationship revolves around one thing or another, usually something that is going to positively impact said friend etc.  In layman terms, they are using you for something and it takes awhile to get the gist of it.