Ramblings...late night...

Nothing more to do than blog lol. Its late and im awake, sure i am, you would be too if you slept all day. I dont mind tooo  much but id like to go shopping, maybe to Target, but its closed. Everywhere i want to go is closed. Oh well, only 6 more hours till morning. Actually i need to make a latte, i havent had one all day, im not sure if thats why i feel like i keep having these brain "zaps" like electrical shocks in my head, ive had them before, but that was when i discontinued Effexor, med for depression- that didnt work by the way. anyway, yes latte, brb.
ok, im back. with my latte. ah too hot to drink. Im really bored right now. I did a little cleaning and i cleaned alot yesterday. So it looks pretty good in here. I dont know what else to do right now. I rarely get like this. oh well. Maybe ill watch some greys anatomy. , hold on Ok, watching season 3 still on greys anatomy. I watch it on Hulu Plus
Anyway, im having a hard time tonight thinking of Mike, just alot of things running through my mind. I havent cried in a bit, but i am tonight. Tears just come. I cant help it. I dont want to cry cause i hate it. but i guess its healthy, right? I just wish it never happened and i wish Mike was here to help raise the boys. My wish wont come true in reality tho so i gotta face it . I'll be fine, just getting it out every now and then helps.Then tomorrow comes and i go on...
Hugs T.

Its 2am

I had a great time shopping, although my son did nothing but rush me along. Note to self, dont bring boys on leisure shopping trip. So i bought the usual food stuff, cleaning products, and then i bought myself a new blanket- remember im trying to get my bedroom back to par, with the new pillowtop mattress pad etc. So its a really soft, egyptian cotton light cocoa colored blanket/quilt. I put it on top of my comforter and layered it down so its at the bottom, b/c i love the feel of my comforter against my skin to sleep. no sheet b/t us. Its the best comforter ever, perfect heaviness, etc. I do miss my bed. I;ve just got to make the rest of my bedroom feel like my bed. Heavenly.
So i cleaned alot, with my new cleaning products, looked at some mail, and now im sitting here on the couch watching Sex and the City - from 2000. with my laptop and my one cat, Ivory, the one that never leaves my side- even when i threaten her. Cleaning around here is never finished tho.
And i cant believe tomorrow is Friday, the day before my work weekend. the dreaded 2 12's. Get ready for the backache, and the footache and the inability to sleep more than an hour or two.
Now im hungry, realizing i didnt eat anything today. snackwells caramel popcorn yummy what a meal....
i guess shopping did help after all.