Well I'm not happy. I'm supposed to be in shopping bliss ugh. I'm at TJ maxx and all I had was a gift card and a check. Someone else had my visa check card. So I pay with my gift card and then they go to put my check through and their STUPID card reader won't read my check bc it's on recycled paper or something stupid. Wait aren't we supposed to be green and they should be up on this with recycled anything. Do anyway everything was all bagged up. I had yo than leave and go to the bank - luckily it was close by. And withdraw money. Now I'm back at TJ maxx and they ate re ringing everything again.
IM SO PISSED. This happened before where I needed my check card and someone else had it on them.
Lesson learned. GIVE ME MY CARD.
Friday, April 20, 2012
Thursday, April 19, 2012
The Latte Mommy: No time for pain.
The Latte Mommy: No time for pain.: I just went shopping , finally got some money and went food shopping and for other bathroom, kitchin stuff. Ah i loved it. THere were a few ...
No time for pain.
I just went shopping , finally got some money and went food shopping and for other bathroom, kitchin stuff. Ah i loved it. THere were a few things i was going to get, had my hands on them ` going in the cart when .. i thought for a minute, Im getting paid tomorrow and i still need to pay some overdue bills so id better wait, pay the bills and then use extra to buy stuff for ME . A few things like , well who knows, i may even change my mind by tomorrow so its better i waited. A cure for my impulsiveness, thinking of no electricity haha
So the boys helped me bring in the 100 bags, they always give you so many bags at Target. I put the cold stuff away, now have everything else still. My back is killing me, only had my injections 12 days ago and im in pain, im gonna try and call her tomorrow, she told me to if it acted up. Sometimes all the pain medecine in the world wont help this back pain. Its such a different pain . And i still have to put alot away, finish wash, vaccum, kitty litter, dishwasher and dishes and then work 2 12's this weekend in ICU. Im screwed, if you cant tell. When my back hurts like this, im miserable. i wanna cry , well i do sometimes. like right now, im thinking and im hurting and im tearing up. Im on the couch watching the end of Real Housewives of Atlanta Reunion and drinking my Starbucks Frappachino plugging in my heating pad. The rest will wait, its not going anywhere tonight and neither am i. Its a shame i dont have any help , isnt it???? Well hey, im not letting this ruin my
shopping high. lol
So the boys helped me bring in the 100 bags, they always give you so many bags at Target. I put the cold stuff away, now have everything else still. My back is killing me, only had my injections 12 days ago and im in pain, im gonna try and call her tomorrow, she told me to if it acted up. Sometimes all the pain medecine in the world wont help this back pain. Its such a different pain . And i still have to put alot away, finish wash, vaccum, kitty litter, dishwasher and dishes and then work 2 12's this weekend in ICU. Im screwed, if you cant tell. When my back hurts like this, im miserable. i wanna cry , well i do sometimes. like right now, im thinking and im hurting and im tearing up. Im on the couch watching the end of Real Housewives of Atlanta Reunion and drinking my Starbucks Frappachino plugging in my heating pad. The rest will wait, its not going anywhere tonight and neither am i. Its a shame i dont have any help , isnt it???? Well hey, im not letting this ruin my
shopping high. lol
Unspoken words
It's funny how people treat you a certain way. Not holding back or anything and you even tell them that you are feeling a certain way , but then when it's all out in the open it's words written or it's meaner more straight forward words written - they suddenly take offense. Wtf. Now all of a sudden it's real , like it meant nothing before. There is only so much a person can take. So now what. Well ivguessvtjry can either take offense and not face the music. If we ignore it surely it will go back to normal won't it ??
It always does. Nothing really ever changes. I don't know why tho. Just a few simple words, an I'm sorry or I'll try but stubbornness remains strong and words go unspoken.
It always does. Nothing really ever changes. I don't know why tho. Just a few simple words, an I'm sorry or I'll try but stubbornness remains strong and words go unspoken.
When you fall out of like
It's hard enough to stay in love these days but what the heck do you do when you stop liking the person you are supposed to share your life with. When you don't want to tell them your secrets your fears or your joys. When any conversation turns into a debate. You can only survive that relationship so long. It's very sad to be with someone and start to realize Thad you are both on different planets. Not much to talk about that you have in commen and then if so its always a war of the words bc you can't just have an opinion or actually know what you are talking about. There is no more meaningful conversations. Then what. ? Can you just live like this. Keep to yourself when it comes to deep thoughts. I don't really know about ther
Friday, April 13, 2012
The Latte Mommy: Supermom and the guilt.
The Latte Mommy: Supermom and the guilt.: You know i totally buy into this supermom/superwoman model that the world today has set up for us. I also am realizing the guilt that comes ...
Supermom and the guilt.
You know i totally buy into this supermom/superwoman model that the world today has set up for us. I also am realizing the guilt that comes along with it. I remember my mother in law said to me, not so long ago, "Oh i remember you used to dress Nicholas so nice, he always looked so cute "etc. Now Nicholas is 13yrs old, and when i had him i was 27yrs old, just married and he was our first baby. OF COURSE he looked cute. See the way it was said was that he USED to look like that, and I USED to be on top of everything and in control. Now im apparently not. I guess she doesnt notice the Abercrombie and Fitch clothes that both my boys wear or their Gap jeans, calvin klien underwear. Im in control now and they looked damned cute. I bust my ass so they do. It just felt like a dig and i dont think im being over sensitive.
It seems today that our world has created this supermom model that we are supposed to ( and even as a single mother) have it all under control, or at least look the part. I think i need to practice on looking the part. I work, part time, every weekend, we have 2 cars, they go to a private school., we have food, breakfast lunch and dinner, and many more things. At times im so proud of myself for doing it alone. But then i see where i may falter in one area, so my desk area is a total mess, or i cant find my keys for 20min at a time, those boys get on the bus on time every morning. I look and read magazine articles, "how do you do it?" for todays moms, how do they? i mean , it gets done but im a mess inside. Im always feeling guilty that i didnt spend enough time with them , quality time, or that im setting a bad example when i say the F word (only now and then) or when i let them stay up late. Am i a bad mom? I feel like i am, alot. And its because of this "supermom" model that is out there, im 40 and somewhat successful, what is it going to make our teenagers strive for, and when they cant fulfill it, do they write a blog? or shove a pillow over their babies screaming mouth, you get the gist?
So, im gonna try and let go of the guilt, bc what good is it? The ones that should feel guilty for being bad moms, dont even know they are! My kids are great, i love them, and take care of them, and they know it. when i kiss their little noses at night, they know it..
It seems today that our world has created this supermom model that we are supposed to ( and even as a single mother) have it all under control, or at least look the part. I think i need to practice on looking the part. I work, part time, every weekend, we have 2 cars, they go to a private school., we have food, breakfast lunch and dinner, and many more things. At times im so proud of myself for doing it alone. But then i see where i may falter in one area, so my desk area is a total mess, or i cant find my keys for 20min at a time, those boys get on the bus on time every morning. I look and read magazine articles, "how do you do it?" for todays moms, how do they? i mean , it gets done but im a mess inside. Im always feeling guilty that i didnt spend enough time with them , quality time, or that im setting a bad example when i say the F word (only now and then) or when i let them stay up late. Am i a bad mom? I feel like i am, alot. And its because of this "supermom" model that is out there, im 40 and somewhat successful, what is it going to make our teenagers strive for, and when they cant fulfill it, do they write a blog? or shove a pillow over their babies screaming mouth, you get the gist?
So, im gonna try and let go of the guilt, bc what good is it? The ones that should feel guilty for being bad moms, dont even know they are! My kids are great, i love them, and take care of them, and they know it. when i kiss their little noses at night, they know it..
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