I hate sneaky liars, , cowards, wish they would just stop pretending ,
ITS SUCH A WASTE OF TIME!!!

The Latte Mommy: That overwhelming feeling

The Latte Mommy: That overwhelming feeling: Besides having ADHD, and some depression thrown in there, why is it so friggin hard to get myself together, my bills, my home, every aspect ...

That overwhelming feeling

Besides having ADHD, and some depression thrown in there, why is it so friggin hard to get myself together, my bills, my home, every aspect of them. You know when you see people write how hard it is to do the simplest things, like im saying, you want to tell them ' well stop talking about it and just do it! Seems and sounds so easy, its the easiet solution, but i get it now. It is nowhere near easy, its like standing at the bottom of a huge hill , with a broken leg lol  Its so overwhelming , in my head, and then it gets worse b/c i avoid and less gets done, more to do. Its so hard to understand the feeling i get when i look at it all and know what i have to do. Its overwhelming, its scary, its unobtainable. I guess bc i really cant keep it great is that i find i clean up my stuff and more just accumulates. Its never ending and i dont help it with my shopping issues. lol, i buy way too much, stuff i already have, i just like it. Ill tell you one thing, its very hard to admit this to the world, i know it in my head , When i actually do accomplish stuff i feel so happy and so content and proud. I guess ill just try hard today. Its only one day at a  time anyway, isnt it....

The Latte Mommy: wounds that just wont heal

The Latte Mommy: wounds that just wont heal: As I have grown into my adult life, well actually its just the past couple of years, im seeing that i must not have dealt with alot of child...

wounds that just wont heal

As I have grown into my adult life, well actually its just the past couple of years, im seeing that i must not have dealt with alot of childhood issues. Not blaming my childhood but realizing that things that happened 30 years ago are still very much affecting my everyday life and the way i raise my children. I think im noticing this more now because im parenting alone. If their dad was here, he definately would have worked through it with me, he wouldnt of let me feel what i feel so deep, scarred.
I had a difficult childhood, but had plenty of people that loved me. My mom was a single mom and did her best, hard work, raising me. It was my stepdad, that really f@ucked me up in the head, now im paying for it. Its like anytime someone yells at my kids, even if they deserve it, even if by a parental figure who cares for them. As soon as the loud booming voice starts, i cringe inside. It might not even bother the kids but its like im feeling it for them, going back in time and feeling it all over again, and i guess im feeling like i need to protect them b/c no one really protected me . The emotional abuse i lived through has never left me. I start to cry and feel it so deep. This is becoming a problem, and im seeing that it definitely has had an impact on my parenting style, discipline, or lack there of. I could go on but i think this is something i have to really work through, somehow. not very easy

The Latte Mommy: Goodbye again,

The Latte Mommy: Goodbye again,: Heres my opinion  on relationships , if you can fix the problem, fix it rather than hiding it, and then having to break up over it. Simply p...

Goodbye again,

Heres my opinion  on relationships , if you can fix the problem, fix it rather than hiding it, and then having to break up over it. Simply put, if its Facebook or yahoo messager that caused the problem and its a legitimate problem that included sexting and dirty web cam pictures, and it ruined the trust you had, id say a solution would be to get rid of your facebook and yahoo messanger for awhile, a long while , until the trust can possibly be built up again. But to leave it the same and then just promise not to do it again, (for the second time) id say its just laughing in your partners face and saying, no its not that important to me to do that. you arent that important. And with that, id say the relationship has no chance, and its time to call it quits, for good this time.... 

Alone again

How hard is it to be affectionate to your sig other? ESP when you haven't seen them all day. Home from work and sitting alone on the couch watching tv alone. Why ? What is so important ? The other end of the computer must be fascinating.that gets really old fast !