Wednesday, February 12, 2014
Looking back at 2013 its hard to believe i really only blogged less than 100 times. Alot happened but i guess i just wanted to keep it to myself. There is a question i have that has really been bugging me, even more so this past year. Why is it that the people you give to the most, end up stealing from you. I would think that if someone is giving you cart blanch e to their stuff, whether it be money, belongings etc., that you would just stay friends, or close to that person knowing you would reap the rewards of just being a good friend etc. Maybe its because the person knows that you give so freely and figures, it must not be that important to you, so why not take as you feel the need. That is an asinine idea, but hey, thieves aren't always the smartest. Really if and when you find out that the person is stealing from you, which by the way, you always find out, the supply comes to a quick end.. There are multiple people ive come across that i guess ive given too much to, so much that its not appreciated. I guess i don't mind sharing because we are all in places when we need, when we don't have a lot, and like i said, i don't mind sharing but i do mind getting taken advantage of, which happens more so than not. I always figured karma would do its job but so far, im just more in the hole with my goods. Im learning that this world sucks. People aren't as they portray. The mask always comes off, whether it be one week or one year. Its not making me give less, its just making me look at people and maybe don't give them the benefit of the doubt but make them work for it. Its not innocent until proven guilty anymore. its a shame!
Saturday, February 8, 2014
Here i am again, still pondering my decisions, replaying shit in my head, to say, "OHHH that's what that was all about!" Enough said, i just decided that im not going to let the liars etc people in this world change me. Im not going to turn into the bitch i should become. I will continue to help those in need, i just have to weed the bad ones out, make it more of a process than just jumping in without my life jacket on. Im just going to continue to be me, that's who i want to be, that's who im comfortable teaching my children who i am. Continuing to be the role model that i have become . Just knowing that my children and my CLOSE friends know can look up to me and think, wow, we all have tough shitty lives and bad things happen to both good and bad people, But, we don't have to become one of them. We can keep on going and achieve great things. I've got to get back to life again, continue my classes for my masters, teach my kids at home and in this shitty life, realize that making people feel good makes me feel good, maybe that's why i am a nurse. A caregiver, not everyone is appreciative but just that one that is can make your day. So sappy i know.
Tuesday, January 28, 2014
The Latte Mommy: Take me or leave me, no just leave me !!!: Im just so disappointed, in other people but mostly in myself. To say ive been taken is an understatement. But really i have no one to blame...
Im just so disappointed, in other people but mostly in myself. To say ive been taken is an understatement. But really i have no one to blame but me. I really need to stop being so nice, only to get lied to , walked over, stolen from, and just really disappointed in humanity. I tend to give people the benefit of the doubt, well im learning that society is just not so nice. Im proving myself wrong but it is costing me an arm and a leg. It seems to be that the more you give people ,of yourself and of monetary things, the more they take. Ive been more than generous over the years to people, only to have them steal from me when im not looking. I don't expect it from them because who would steal from someone that is giving you whatever you needed. Oh im sorry maybe its as simple as im giving it to you in a blue cup and you want it in gold. If its not the way you want it, its just not what it is. How can we tell these intruders from the friends and family we thought we were so close to. How do we know if there words are lies and they are making the "bad person" worse than they are. I mean one person can only have so much bad luck. Shouldn't i have seen that? Is there a test we should be giving? Or am i just to turn into a complete non giving non caring bitch in order to maintain my dignity and keep myself safe. I suppose so. I guess when you find that you cant advance your relationship whether it be friendship or love , because normal everyday things are out of the question and your relationship revolves around one thing or another, usually something that is going to positively impact said friend etc. In layman terms, they are using you for something and it takes awhile to get the gist of it.