Tuesday, July 24, 2012

Can't win

I hate the fact that when I actually take the pain meds thst pain management perscribed me , the Pain goes awar but im left zombified for hours. There is no happy medium that will satisfy I mean when I have bad Back pain I can barely function and want to cry I was supposed to have an appt with a new doc. Arthritis doc and I've been waiting forever and finally got the appt ang Ii overslept. Missed it. Im so screwed. I was thinking he'd have done new ideas for me. Damned if I do. Damned if don't !!

Friday, July 20, 2012

The Latte Mommy: Dont grow up so fast, little one.

The Latte Mommy: Dont grow up so fast, little one.: w hat to do , what to do. My 11 year old has the mind of a 30 something yr old man. He has always been ahead , its always felt like you were...

Dont grow up so fast, little one.

what to do , what to do. My 11 year old has the mind of a 30 something yr old man. He has always been ahead , its always felt like you were talking to an adult, not a child, Normal childhood games and experiences never really applied to him, and now he is realizing it. He worries so much, about money, about me, about life. Its as if he is carrying the weight of the world on his little shoulders. My boys have been through alot of different and hard things in their lives. They are good boys and im so proud of them. I know it must be partly my fault, b/c how would he be worrying about money if he hadnt heard me complain about not having any. He often feels guilty for nothing. I just want him to have more self confidence and i try to instill it. I want to take his worries away, he has his whole life to worry. ive tried getting him a therapist before, but he clams up when he gets there, he doesnt talk about that stuff, i guess i need to find someone he really can bond with. Im trying my best, but i cant fix everything, even as a parent. Guess ill be searching for a new therapist in the morning. Poor kid. so cute, 

Wednesday, July 4, 2012

Sick times suck !

I feel like crap. Just sick all over. I hate feeling this way. I just want it to end!! Sorry that's all I have for now , I'm hoping to go see fireworks tonight with the kids , as long as I feel a little better!!