Not quite sure where these moods come from, where do they originate, what makes them switch so suddenly, when im not even prepared. It really sucks. I just hate it when it goes from sad and blah to irritable and quick tempered , where is the happy part? Thats the mood that seems to fly by without me even knowing or recognizing it. I went shopping last night, that is one of my "high" feelings, impulsive yes, thrilling yes, but also short lived.
Luckily im on call tomorrow, although sometimes a change of environment is what i need, i can even see how i self sabotage myself bc i know that for things to be chill and even keel i need to sleep right , eat right, and take care of myself- im eating right , just lately but sleep- not a chance. It just seems im the easiet one to ignore , i know i have to take care of me first so im trying to get the environment of my body just right.