The Latte Mommy: when did everyone become so ungrateful

The Latte Mommy: when did everyone become so ungrateful: I am in a miserable mood. Its like my ADD is in full swing. I have 100 things i want to do at once. so many great ideas, then i attempt to...

when did everyone become so ungrateful

I am in a miserable mood. Its like my ADD is in full swing. I have 100 things i want to do at once. so many great ideas, then i attempt to start one of them and i become bored, so i think ok now on to the next  and that too, becomes no fun. So im left with a few started projects and a mess. even trying to organize my stuff turns ugly.

you know i hate getting caught up in the moment of things and then you look back at it and realize, it wasnt that big of a deal. I mean my kids and our wellbeing are the most important things to me. then comes my job, etc.  So when something bad happens to me, i let it bother me wayyy too much. I try and be strong, hold back the emotions that i used to not feel. I used to be icy, my family called me "the ice princess". ahh back in the day. Now every now and then i get all mushy and i cry at reruns of Grays Anatomy. and daydream of babies and little girls with pink bows in their hair. I love my boys!! So now sometimes the emotions sneak through and its so not worth it. People dont need to see me cry or sweat. because "this too shall pass"  . Anyway its hard to recover and put your pride back on. but after all, i know im a good nurse, i know im a good person, i dont need to feel small b/c of a few little things, that in the scheme of saving life, really have nothing to do with it, and its a shame people dont realize that anymore. Ungrateful!
enough bitching!! hey AT LEAST I HAVE A JOB, RIGHT? LOL

Well I'm not happy. I'm supposed to be in shopping bliss ugh. I'm at TJ maxx and all I had was a gift card and a check. Someone else had my visa check card. So I pay with my gift card and then they go to put my check through and their STUPID card reader won't read my check bc it's on recycled paper or something stupid. Wait aren't we supposed to be green and they should be up on this with recycled anything. Do anyway everything was all bagged up. I had yo than leave and go to the bank - luckily it was close by. And withdraw money. Now I'm back at TJ maxx and they ate re ringing everything again.
IM SO PISSED. This happened before where I needed my check card and someone else had it on them.
Lesson learned. GIVE ME MY CARD.

The Latte Mommy: No time for pain.

The Latte Mommy: No time for pain.: I just went shopping , finally got some money and went food shopping and for other bathroom, kitchin stuff. Ah i loved it. THere were a few ...

No time for pain.

I just went shopping , finally got some money and went food shopping and for other bathroom, kitchin stuff. Ah i loved it. THere were a few things i was going to get, had my hands on them ` going in the cart when .. i thought for a minute, Im getting paid tomorrow and i still need to pay some overdue bills so id better wait, pay the bills and then use extra to buy stuff for ME . A few things like , well who knows, i may even change my mind by tomorrow so its better i waited. A cure for my impulsiveness, thinking of no electricity haha
So the boys helped me bring in the 100 bags, they always give you so many bags at Target. I put the cold stuff away, now have everything else still. My back is killing me, only had my injections 12 days ago and im in pain, im gonna try and call her tomorrow, she told me to if it acted up. Sometimes all the pain medecine in the world wont help this back pain. Its such a different pain . And i still have to put alot away, finish wash, vaccum, kitty litter, dishwasher and dishes and then work 2 12's this weekend in ICU. Im screwed, if you cant tell. When my back hurts like this, im miserable. i wanna cry , well i do sometimes. like right now, im thinking and im hurting and im tearing up. Im on the couch watching the end of Real Housewives of Atlanta Reunion and drinking my Starbucks Frappachino plugging in my heating pad. The rest will wait, its not going anywhere tonight and neither am i. Its a shame i dont have any help , isnt it???? Well hey, im not letting this ruin my
shopping high. lol

Unspoken words

It's funny how people treat you a certain way. Not holding back or anything and you even tell them that you are feeling a certain way , but then when it's all out in the open it's words written or it's meaner more straight forward words written - they suddenly take offense. Wtf. Now all of a sudden it's real , like it meant nothing before. There is only so much a person can take. So now what. Well ivguessvtjry can either take offense and not face the music. If we ignore it surely it will go back to normal won't it ??
It always does. Nothing really ever changes. I don't know why tho. Just a few simple words, an I'm sorry or I'll try but stubbornness remains strong and words go unspoken.

When you fall out of like

It's hard enough to stay in love these days but what the heck do you do when you stop liking the person you are supposed to share your life with. When you don't want to tell them your secrets your fears or your joys. When any conversation turns into a debate. You can only survive that relationship so long. It's very sad to be with someone and start to realize Thad you are both on different planets. Not much to talk about that you have in commen and then if so its always a war of the words bc you can't just have an opinion or actually know what you are talking about. There is no more meaningful conversations. Then what. ? Can you just live like this. Keep to yourself when it comes to deep thoughts. I don't really know about ther