Budgeting may give me peace of mind!

Like i previously noted, money is a pain in the azz.  Im so sick and tired of not having it, having $150 in overdraft fees each month and being late with payments. Its so frustrating to have your hard earned money just gone poof. Very discouraging to say the least. So i have a plan. Dont i always lol. I barely write any checks, its all online banking and i have things that the money is just taken out every month, like my at&t bill for example. So since i dont write checks, i dont keep a checkbook. I always used to, like 15 yrs ago lol. But if i think back, i never had these problems before. So, im going to keep a ledger. I think its going to be hard, since like i said alot of things just come out of my account , ill have to really keep an eye on that. Also, i use my debit card for EVERYTHING i do. So, yeah i can keep receipts but i always throw them out. I may have like 10 in one day and 1 the next. Im scared ill miss a few but i guess if i reconcile it with my banking online i should be ok. 
I think this will make me accountable for all the money i spend, so i can say, hey ive spent alot of money at x store . I have to do this, it may well just give me the peace of mind i need, in at least one respect!  The rest of my life, hey i cant ask for it all. Wish me luck. Ill let you know how it goes. Now i just have to figure out what kind of notebook etc would be the best for this adventure of mine. Hmm.
HUGS 

No time for pain.

I just went shopping , finally got some money and went food shopping and for other bathroom, kitchin stuff. Ah i loved it. THere were a few things i was going to get, had my hands on them ` going in the cart when .. i thought for a minute, Im getting paid tomorrow and i still need to pay some overdue bills so id better wait, pay the bills and then use extra to buy stuff for ME . A few things like , well who knows, i may even change my mind by tomorrow so its better i waited. A cure for my impulsiveness, thinking of no electricity haha
So the boys helped me bring in the 100 bags, they always give you so many bags at Target. I put the cold stuff away, now have everything else still. My back is killing me, only had my injections 12 days ago and im in pain, im gonna try and call her tomorrow, she told me to if it acted up. Sometimes all the pain medecine in the world wont help this back pain. Its such a different pain . And i still have to put alot away, finish wash, vaccum, kitty litter, dishwasher and dishes and then work 2 12's this weekend in ICU. Im screwed, if you cant tell. When my back hurts like this, im miserable. i wanna cry , well i do sometimes. like right now, im thinking and im hurting and im tearing up. Im on the couch watching the end of Real Housewives of Atlanta Reunion and drinking my Starbucks Frappachino plugging in my heating pad. The rest will wait, its not going anywhere tonight and neither am i. Its a shame i dont have any help , isnt it???? Well hey, im not letting this ruin my
shopping high. lol

Alert: Impulsive shopper on the loose!!!

Enough! I've got to stop it now. I've gotten grossly involved in researching on the net, on one of my usual topics- ADHD. I have it but my 12yr old was just recently diagnosed and it was a HORRIBLE school year- so now we have diagnosis and he is on meds and I cant have another year like last- esp since my 10 yr old is starting a new school and i dont know what is in store for him. So anyway, ive been researching vigorously all night- 10 tabs open on the laptop, and clicking Paypal every time i found something great to download that will help. I think i spent alot of money in the past 12 hours. Damn- i hate it when i do this. I mean i guess its like buying books- and anything that is enriching my knowledge base and will help my son ( and me too!) is worth it. I can convince myself pretty easily huh.
Then my eyes keep wandering to the apple site and i keep wanting the white iphone4. I have the 3gs now and its just beat. I need a new phone. I think im eligible for upgrade in sept, but I CANT wait that long! Torture. So who knows, by the end of the week, who knows. I can give my phone to my son, just without the phone. Thats what he wants anyway and why buy the little guy an expensive, breakable new ipod touch when i can hand down mine and get a sparkling spanking new white one!!!
Damn, i wanted to go to Target today too. What is wrong with me, Im overtired, overstimulated and impulsively shopping away. I'll stop now. No more, for real. Im strong enough - HMM maybe a Caramel Frappuccino  (sp?) from Starbucks would cure a latte mommy. LOL.
HUGS
T.

Lots of organizing to do- ADD issues

I hate it when i let it get like this. OUT OF CONTROL with the paperwork. Since we live in a "luxury apartment home" hehe, there isnt alot of extra room. So i guess i made my "woman cave" on the far side of the sofa by the window. I have my laptop on the coffee table , actually i take up the whole coffee table, and then to my left is a basket with pretty folders, organizers, planners, envelopes, etc- get the drift. Now if thats not enough, i have papers and magazines covering the floor between the sofa and my big basket!! Its so much. Thats one of my big problems, i try so hard to organize i overdo it on buying organizing tools. I like pretty, colorful ones, supposedly useful to my ADD- HMMM? Every now and then i go through all this stuff and actually organize it lol. Right now, its at a low point.
And btw, did i tell you about a month ago when i decided it would be a good idea to sell jewelry! OMG, i havent committed myself to something like that in a long time. Knowing as i was doing it that i had reservations in the back of my head. Should have listened to myself. So i tried and paid the money for the jewelry- like 200 or something and apparently i didnt fill it all out so i ended up with a big box of order sheets, catalogs, phamplets, cards, you name it, but NO jewelry hahah. Anyway i still havent fixed this issue and now i absolutely positively dont want to be committed to anything more than i have to be!! Hopefully i'll get most of my money back. Impulsiveness not controlled SUCKS. And as im thinking of this, ive secretly been very upset that i cant find my planner, calendar, im pretending im not upset, like its here somewhere, but What if its not? SHIT. Maybe if i straightened up this mess id find it.
And now im seeing all the back to school sales, i dont think i need much, but the impulsive shopper that i am cant hold back. UGH. I have so much to do. Make dentist, doctor etc appts, get forms filled out, make the boys READ. This is such a challenge, thank god i only work weekends. Well i guess id better get organizing while my brain appears to be awake.
HUGS
T.

Its 2am

I had a great time shopping, although my son did nothing but rush me along. Note to self, dont bring boys on leisure shopping trip. So i bought the usual food stuff, cleaning products, and then i bought myself a new blanket- remember im trying to get my bedroom back to par, with the new pillowtop mattress pad etc. So its a really soft, egyptian cotton light cocoa colored blanket/quilt. I put it on top of my comforter and layered it down so its at the bottom, b/c i love the feel of my comforter against my skin to sleep. no sheet b/t us. Its the best comforter ever, perfect heaviness, etc. I do miss my bed. I;ve just got to make the rest of my bedroom feel like my bed. Heavenly.
So i cleaned alot, with my new cleaning products, looked at some mail, and now im sitting here on the couch watching Sex and the City - from 2000. with my laptop and my one cat, Ivory, the one that never leaves my side- even when i threaten her. Cleaning around here is never finished tho.
And i cant believe tomorrow is Friday, the day before my work weekend. the dreaded 2 12's. Get ready for the backache, and the footache and the inability to sleep more than an hour or two.
Now im hungry, realizing i didnt eat anything today. snackwells caramel popcorn yummy what a meal....
i guess shopping did help after all.

Lets try the shopping!!

Well, last night into today wasnt great, but it was better than the days before. Im still down and yuck, i have a big pimple on my chin, pimples make me feel so ugly and gross. Just what i need right now. The more i try to cover it up, the worse it looks.
So i figured id write this post while im holding the ice cube wrapped in a napkin onto the huge monstrosity on my face. I do find that when i stay in my home all day, i get more depressed. The window is open, blinds open, daylight is showing, but i feel like a hermit. So im going to have to do something about it.
I know i said that even shopping isnt doing it for me, well that is just not right!!! What was i thinking, i love to shop. Shopping just makes me happy, whether it be the 100th pack of pencils with strawberries and balloons on them(kid in me) or cleaning supplies or anything, I just love to shop. So, im taking it on, head on.
I'll bring my 10yr old with me, after all , he tells me "Target has video games" as if.... I'll stop and get a caramel cappuccino- cold, and then head off to Targetland.  I did end up taking my Pristiq today. I didnt want to but until i have an alternative or something to add to it, im not going to give up , YET. Im already sweating , nasty side effect of it!
So, ill let you know how it goes,